Dearest One - 1

To dare to believe that one knows it all is indeed folly. It is stupidity at its best. For life in itself is a learning process, right up to the second we draw in our last breath. I have learned and I know I am still learning. To read and to observe, to perceive and to analyze, these are processes that keep the mind in continuous work mode. The product of which is the ability to learn, to come to realize something that managed to escape you before.
I have indeed learned. I have learned that the imperfection of man is what makes him perfect in Christ. I have learned that to be vulnerable in Him is to be powerful beyond measure. To surrender to Him completely, relinquishing all control is what we ought to do, is the easier thing to do, but it is what we mostly fail to do. It is what we will rather not do. Man is indeed a complex being. How can we have the best given to us for free and yet choose the worst with all its misery? For to live for Christ is not only for the reward that is to come, but for the attainment of a fulfilled and satisfied earthly life. But daily we chose to be filled with what cannot fill us. We search for answers where there are none. We allow ourselves to be consumed by deceit, to be enslaved by what we ought to control.
Yes, my flesh craves, my body desires. I have the longings of any human but the Spirit of God that lives in me triumphs. He reminds me that satisfying worldly desires will only result in temporary satisfaction, days in turmoil and a smug smile on Satan's face. He reminds me that the God I serve knows how to reward His own. He knows how to startle the world with the blessings He showers on you, for what is impossible is just what He will do. Yes I am learning. I am learning to operate in wisdom, and yet trust that everyone of my decisions is part of God's divine will. I am learning that with no effort and a daily dose of His word, I chose carefully those choices that keep me on the right path.